RT @Crazy Game...

[Insert "Crazy Game..." here]

It's been months since we even heard about each other.

I was supposed to be okay.

I was supposed to have let go and moved on.

I honestly thought that I had.

But tonight, I found that I was wrong.

It's been a while since I felt like this and I just feel lost.

Crazy Game...

Hey Blog. It's been a while.

I think I only go on here when I really really need to let out... I don't really know what I'm feeling right now to be honest. I fear that I might just be wasting my time... But at the same time, I wouldn't know unless I gave it a chance. Does that make sense? This is all so crazy and weird. It almost seems unnatural. This isn't how it's supposed to be... but I mean... There's not much I can do about it. Circumstances are so out of the ordinary... Well... We'll see where everything goes from here because based on past experiences, I can never really tell. Once something is going right... It ends up going left. Life. Weird huh?

Should I have learned my lesson? Do I have TOO MUCH faith in people? Is that such a bad thing?

I honestly don't know.

Cause Cupid Got Killed

Right now... I am so out of it.

I don't know what happened. I just all of a sudden became a pessimist.
Great.

I could just as easily say "Valentine's Day is for suckers!"
But then I would know that I'm only saying it because of my bitterness.
I haven't had a good valentine's day in a while.
Or at least not a worth it one.
I mean, can you blame me for wanting to spend Valentine's day with someone fun?

Hey. Sometimes you don't get what you want.
You gotta deal with it.

I guess I'm also fazed out because of my past.
I know I've always been interested in the unavailable people.
I don't know why but that's just how it ends up.
I don't like the fact the their unavailable. Duh.
But I can't do anything about it.
Then when there's a mutual feeling, my forehead get's stamped with "homewrecker."
Whoopee...
I guess it's my fault. I could always just stop.

But who's to tell me that I can't try to get what I want.
I don't even know why I care so much about people I don't know.
Shoot. "I don't know who your boyfriend is. I don't care!"
... That's how I should be... But it seems unethical.
Maybe if I was that assertive I'd actually be somewhere.
Well... We'll see I guess...