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"Wow..."

Tag(s): fourteen.

Really, I'm Okay.

I am so tired of everything.

I'm tired of school.

I'm tired of people.

I'm tired of drama.

I'm tired of homework.

I'm tired of stress.

I'm tired of family.

I'm tired of bottling up.

I'm tired of fronting.

I'm tired of getting my hopes up.

I'm tired of being let down.

I'm tired of being put down.


There's so many things going on that I don't pay attention to. I don't want to think about them but I know they're somewhere in the back of my mind. I try to breathe out my stress, but sometimes it's just not enough. My back hurts so much. I know there are a million knots there because of my stress. I feel like everything is pushing down on me, mentally and physically. My thoughts aren't happy, my body isn't healthy. I feel like I could faint at any moment. It's so overwhelming, but I don't want to burden anybody else with my own stress so I put up a front and say I'm okay. Usually, I keep telling myself that I AM okay until I believe it, so that, technically, I wouldn't be lying when I tell people nothing is wrong.

Ugh.
Well, even though I'm tired of everything... Life is life and I have to do what I have to do and try to deal with it.
I'm just not quite sure how.

I'm tired of fronting.

Random? - #4

LMAO!!!!

So I don't know why...

but I just now, randomly said "salt."

HAHAHAHAH!!!

I don't know why!!!!

Woooooh!!

I think it's because I'm tired.

Working my corner all day...;P

Cotillion practice at jeannel's.

I have to choreograph again.

I got like three eight counts done. XP

We'll see how that goes.

Isolations are pretty difficult to choreograph.

I need to finish as soon as possible.

I have a calculus test on Tuesday and I'm so nervous.

I brought my grade up to a C though!!!

But I'm scared that it'll bump down after this test. T_T

We'll see how it goes.

Guess that's all for now.

At Least Everything Is Clean...

So me and my sister got in a fight with my mother.
The feud went on for a good hour.
All I wanted to do was hang out with my friends.
I was already going to clean my room.
Then my mother had to make it such a big deal.
She ended up getting attacked by my sister and me.
Whenever she knows she's wrong, she can't say anything.
She practically threatened to kick me out of the house.
Apparently, I go out with my friends too much.
I don't help around the house (Yes, I do).
I hate being at home.

We told her if she didn't like looking at our room, nobody told her she had to go in there.
She twisted it and said "If you guys don't want me in your life then I'll leave you alone. Done."
WOW. Nobody said that. I don't know what language we were speaking that you can get that message.
She always has to make everything overdramatic.
It's so stupid.
If you're not gonna talk to me. Fine.
But I know that I was being more mature than you and I was right.

You practically chose a clean house over the relationship with your children.

Random? - #3

Today for breakfast I ate a peanut butter sandwich, ramen noodles, and chocolate.

I want some cookies. I shoulda baked some.

I want white chocolate macadamia cookies.

Standing in the sun all day today. Great. T_T

I have to practice for my spoken solo for choir.

Speaking then bursts into song. How fun.

I'm kinda nervous but excited at the same time.

We're gonna be wearing one piece pjs for winter concert. Cute huh...?

I'm so bored. I need to use the bathroom but I want to finish this first.

I have a lot of calculus homework to do.

I hope I did okay on friday's quiz.

I got a B on my last test for calculus!!! Woooop!

I'm proud of myself. I just have to work harder.

Hopefully my grade went up.

I don't think my B went into quarter grades so I probably got a D first quarter.

But hey. It's an AP class. It's supposed to be hard... I think.

I'm thirsty. I don't really want to do anything today.

But I have to. Boo.

I guess that's all. I'm hungry.

I want some bacon. =P

No on Prop 8

I was in Danville today and I got really angry.

There was a bunch of people EVERYWHERE waving signs that said "Yes on Prop 8." Those people are so ignorant. Me and Hamed started shouting out the window while we were passing them. Hamed said, "Suck my left nut!" or something like that and I just booed and said, "No on Prop 8." I don't understand why it matters to people that same sex couples marry each other. It's not like it's hurting them in anyway. Sure, they might have the belief that gay marriage is wrong and maybe it's their religion, but fact is, it's THEIR religion and THEIR beliefs. Two people of the same sex that marry each other is not gonna effect their family so I don't know why they are stressing that matter so much. There are other propositions that matter more than gay marriage, yet those people where stressing Prop 8 the most. I hated seeing those yellow signs everywhere in that area.

Let people live how they want to live. The gay community is doing nothing offensive to the straight community, so why do they hate the gay community so much? If anything, the people of straight community (for example, those people in danville) are the once offending the homosexual community by wanting to rid them of their freedom of happiness. Saying yes on prop 8 is like saying "We're so ignorant and selfish that we're going to ruin the happiness of homosexuals by taking their right to marry away."

I don't want to keep rambling on because it might make me angrier.
I just hope that I don't see those people tomorrow and that Prop 8 doesn't pass.