Really, I'm Okay.

I am so tired of everything.

I'm tired of school.

I'm tired of people.

I'm tired of drama.

I'm tired of homework.

I'm tired of stress.

I'm tired of family.

I'm tired of bottling up.

I'm tired of fronting.

I'm tired of getting my hopes up.

I'm tired of being let down.

I'm tired of being put down.


There's so many things going on that I don't pay attention to. I don't want to think about them but I know they're somewhere in the back of my mind. I try to breathe out my stress, but sometimes it's just not enough. My back hurts so much. I know there are a million knots there because of my stress. I feel like everything is pushing down on me, mentally and physically. My thoughts aren't happy, my body isn't healthy. I feel like I could faint at any moment. It's so overwhelming, but I don't want to burden anybody else with my own stress so I put up a front and say I'm okay. Usually, I keep telling myself that I AM okay until I believe it, so that, technically, I wouldn't be lying when I tell people nothing is wrong.

Ugh.
Well, even though I'm tired of everything... Life is life and I have to do what I have to do and try to deal with it.
I'm just not quite sure how.

I'm tired of fronting.