Lost

It's not fair. You don't get to do that to me. You know that I had feelings for you and you took advantage of it. You don't even know how hurt I am. You tell me that you appreciate me, but you never show me. Monday night, I tried to talk to you about it. I was crying on the phone!... And you told me to "just forget about it." You can't tell someone to forget something that big. It meant so much to me and when I asked you what it meant to you... you said, "I don't know. Just forget about it, Mix..." Forget about it?! It's not fair that I have to forget about something that YOU did. The truth is, I can't forget about it. I tried calling you back after you hung up on me that night. You didn't pick up or call back. Thanks... that really shows me how much you appreciate me. It's been five days and counting that you've been avoiding the problem. No, I don't want to talk to you at school until you gather up the balls to talk to me about what happened. We both let it happen and it's not fair that I'm the only one that tried to fix it. I cried my eyes out that night... but just that night. I've been holding them in until now. Everything is just pouring out. I've been bottling it up so much that now, all my tears are running down my face. And even though you can't see me, you should know that you've hurt me so much. I don't want to look at you, but I want to see you. I don't want to have these feelings, but I do. I don't want to miss you, but I do. I don't want to love you, but I do...

I want to believe that you would be the one losing something good... but I honestly feel like I've lost something that I loved.