Motivation

I'm a little scared of going back to school. Because I know that I would try to accomplish my goals, but I'm unsure of what my motivation is... or if I have anything to keep me motivated at all. I want to say that I don't need anybody else to keep me motivated but the truth is, I'm not sure. Two more years then it's off to the real world. I wonder what that's going to be like. Yes, freedom, but at the same time, responsibility. Maybe I just need to realize that I don't have to go looking around for someone to call my own because it's in God's hands. I guess I just like the feeling of having someone because, unlike others who feel insecure with their partner, I can throw away the insecurities about myself that tell me that I'm not good enough. If you know me, then I probably wouldn't come off as an insecure person, but deep down, I do have my insecurities.

So should my insecurities get in the way of finding motivation?

My friends DO keep me motivated but I should motivate myself more than they motivate me. I mean, THEY believe in me, so I have no excuse not to believe in myself.

*"Don't listen to what some stupid stranger says. You're perfect." This was said by one of my closest friends and it made me burst into tears. It made me realize that, not only did I make the right decision in befriending her and letting her into my life, she has faith in me so I should have faith in myself.

Do I even need to find motivation or should I just be motivated by the feeling of accomplishment?

That last one sounds good to me.


*Patnah Maria. I love her to death. You're my inspiration. Thank you.